Louder & Louder

A subathing gnome in England

pastymuncher:

Superb reflection photo from Time To Wander

post-teenageriotintheheart:

Well its more than one month since I arrived in Hanmer Springs and I am feeling like put something together about my stay here and write more crap about my travel in NZ.

I don’t know, but right now (unless I don’t get all these depressed feeling which I happen to have) I really feel like living kind of my dream here. Having two “low” jobs makes me enjoying life of a “loser”. I kinda always dreamed about something like this (of course in my dreams it is/was much better, reality always sucks). I am renting this enormous room with double bed in very crappy old house (almost falling apart), but it is still great (if I don’t consider that I get no hot water - oh god how I love hot shower…). And when I am not working I am spending a quite lot money in a bar (the only place to go here) for getting drunk (this thing actually resembles with my dream :P)…

Yeah everything would be perfect, if it wasn’t a big village and it was still my old me from 2 or 3 years ago - living perfect loser life :) But here in NZ I realized how much I have changed after Finland and the travel around Europe year and half ago. I suddenly happen to make friends much easier even without being totally drunk (I happen to know like everyone here and met really nice people), I am more open and after the job as a salesman in Auckland I can even look directly to peoples eyes. And what is worse, I keep smiling all the time (I really hate this change!!!). The scariest thing is when I am being told by people that they find me attractive - its feels so strange :D (its flattering, but I think I needed to hear this stuff like 10 years ago, when I still cared about it…)

The stay here also resembles life as it always up and down. One week everything is perfect, I get many hours, earn good money and suddenly next week everything sucks (but at least I have spare time to watch all these perfect movies I brought with me to watch them once again). I got laid off from work, I got a new one…. But I found out that once you make your job properly and honestly, it will/should always turn out good, even tough there are always some exceptions :(

Well lets see how next/last month here will look like (it will probably sucks more and more with getting less and less work…). I am kinda scared/looking forward that its only three weeks to this special date when I should start keeping the promise I gave to myself years ago…

But enjoying a summer here really stopped me caring why I came here and all this stuff. Having seen all the beauty of nature here I think I am doing fine and I look forward when I ll start traveling and exploring more of South Island :)